confusion in her eyes that says it all

Necklace, Topshop.

My latest purchase shows that the recent (well, it's been this way for a while, let's face it) nautical obsession is continuing. Got a dress from River Island a couple of weeks ago but I'm waiting for warmth and bare legs before that gets an outing. Rather than the make-up applied 14 hours ago/school uniform/no nail varnish combination that's going on above.

Whilst taking this photo I found the last one I'd taken on Photo Booth to be rather... blue:

Brooch; Luella. Cardigan; vintage.

A friend complained that my black and white msn display picture was annoying, and that it needed colour. Unfortunately brown hair and pale skin made the next attempt pretty much black and white, so I whipped off my brooch (my first Luella!!!) and put it prominently in view.. in my mouth. It reminds me of something, but I don't know what?

Apologies if this post seems a bit disjointed, my work ethic is currently zero and I have history coursework and a German oral to prepare for as well as the heaps of homework that is slowly mounting up, as well as a little writing project I've got going underway.... workworkwork, and not the time to do it in!

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together/apart

Photo: Sonia Rykiel fall 2011, courtesy of The Cherry Blossom Girl

I spent a long while today making a present for a friend's birthday today. Patti Smith was my soundtrack to my labours, an album recommended to me by a friend. There wasn't anyone else in the room while my oil pastel smudged fingers shaded the various areas of the page, but I was still unwittingly surrounded by their influence.

I was having a discussion earlier about whether friends are worth it. He was saying that he doubted he'd keep in touch with anyone when he moved on to university in September. Maybe one, maybe two, but he wouldn't really make that much of an effort to try and retain the closeness that he'd built up over the past seven years. I wondered if I was an exception to this rule, or if I were just another person who was an annoyance in his day to day life.

To me, friends are inextricable from me. So what if sometimes they're annoying? They are integral to my progression, they make me happy, they make me sad, they anger me, and I've cried myself to sleep over them. Songs remind me of them, and my walls are littered with photos of us.

The photo below was sent to me by one. I have no idea where it's from. All I know is that it's saved as "me and jo". I think that's all I really need to know about it.

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mundane

The reason why I don't write much in each blog post is because I'm a boring person really.

There isn't exactly anything new when it comes to learning about my life.

Here are some insipid facts that make me "me":

• I am currently studying English Literature, History, Art, German and Russian, and often leave the latter's lesson in a state of disarray and incertitude.
• I find it very difficult to talk about myself.
• I am deemed to be "baggage"
• I currently have someone else's passport next to me.
• I cut off the circulation to my toes earlier this evening in the name of "art", and couldn't walk for about 15 minutes.
• I would give anything to have an eight day week (no Beatles reference intended) so that I can attempt to heal friendships.

On a slightly different note, I had an argument with one of my friends earlier. She's immature, stubborn, spoilt, sheltered, and vacuous. She refuses to believe that others may not want to do what she wants all the time, and she stamps her slipper-socked foot in fury, and her hair emanates in red waves from her head as she storms off, swinging herself from side to side, in an attempt to make as dramatic an effect as possible, forgetting that after a silence of two days she'll inevitably forget and start venting her problems through me again.

And I'll let her, even though I know that she's all of these things.

Because she's my friend.

I think I'm scared of letting go of the past.

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